This year has started in tears and is finishing in a slightly mental state of grace. Which is what life should be like so it's all good. In the meanwhile I have managed to say goodbye to Cambridge without shedding too many tears. Although I did go nuts before and after the fateful day. I've also somehow managed to face my monsters and sort of defeat them. Hence the holly bizzarre state of grace - deep grace - of the present day. Here are a few of the things I have learned over the past 12 months. Or drops of wisdom for the future. In no particular order:
It's easy to blame other people for our flaws, but we have to keep in mind that ultimately we are responsible for who we are.
When you feel the world is closing in on you and you'll never see the sun again, just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snow lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring become the rose. Or in short, time heals everything.
Most of the things that seem huge to us, will appear small and stupid in a few months time.
I'm not a fighter (already knew that), I'm a dreamer. And I like to keep my dream as they are. Which probably means utter failure in the realm of reality.
To love is to put other people's happiness before ours. And to let them go.
Knock, and it will be opened. Ask, and you will be answered.
Perhaps nature makes us dull and boring in old age on purpose. So that when we finally go, those who love us will suffer less.
For every life that come to a close, few fresh ones are born. The cycle will continue non-stop.
I'm not ready for real life. And probably will never be. Fact.
One person is enough to redeem a whole country in my eyes. Which leads to the consideration that no, I have no faith in politics and institutions but people, oh, people they can change the planet for the better.
Find your center and you are sure to win.
Never allow someone to be your priority when for them you are just an option.
The one and only thing that makes me really, deeply happy is to be with people. Feeling useful for my friends and spending time with them is my vocation. As cheesy as it may sound.
Me gustas los pinguinos.